Check in... #4?

So, in future I might move these weekly weigh ins to Friday's. After an opulent weekend of much alcohol and a not so crazy amount of food... well, let me just say 3 days ago I was 87.5.

6/2/2012 - 0700 - 90.2KG (+2.2KG)

CURSE YOU DELICIOUS BEER!

- Sevy

I get one mildly depressing post a month. Say hi to 2012

The thing I hate about wanting things is that we get so used to the feeling. Especially as the longer we go on wanting these yearnings or dreams we unconsciously become content with the fact that some of them will remain ethereal.

But the moment a long relegated dream is given a moment, even by accident, to gain shape again; a chance to once more play vividly in your foremost thoughts; to just as quickly have it robbed from you... it's quite possibly one of the most sobering, disheartening and painful experiences to go through.

I'd estimate I've felt that 6 times so far in my adult life. The last being tonight. It was still somehow a happy hurt. But each time it happens I feel like I become a little less of an optimist. Not towards friends, but myself. I'll always believe those I love are capable of anything their hearts dare them to try their hand at.

I'll be capable of a lot. Just not anything anymore.

I hate realists...

- Sevy

Check in #3

Quick post today. Feel like crud and brain no good work.

30/01/12 - 0700 - 88.0KG (-0.2)

Bad ideas

I feel like buying a giant pair of jeans and just convincing people I've lost 80kg. I'll need a shopping cart full of bags of flour or oranges too. To really sell it.

- Sevy

Check in #2

I wish someone had told me how quickly weeks could travel once you hit 27. This last one, let alone the previous 20 have been a colour hazed blur. I can only hope I get a chance to savour some of the coming ones; good or bad.

Anyolhoooo...

WOW! What a huge amount of exercise I managed to not do this week. I think we can safely put this one down to the increased heat and not my super Greek metabolism.

23/01/12 - 0630 - 88.2KG (-0.4)

- Sevy

Mobile Post the First!

Hi there the 0 people that read this infrequently updated, questionably interesting blog.

New Years Resolutions. I have many, and plan on posting them here as a running failure tally but at this very moment I have time for only one.

By March I will drop down to 80kg.

Fair ask I know. Likelihood low you may say. Bah I say to you. Possibly even Fi. That's around 8kg of fat. And there is also $100 riding on this. Likelihood increasing...

Well, regardless of whether I make it or not I'll be using this page to track my progress every Monday morning. So, to conclude -

16/1/12 - 0700 - 88.6KG

- Sevy

Phone Fun

Hey there you 2-3 people that actually read this infrequently updated nook of the net.

This will be a small post. To get some random things out. Blegh.

So last night I deleted the inbox on my mobile phone. Looking at the tally of 2300 sms' and how it was taking nearly a minute for a message to pop on screen I think I made the right choice.

Though it was funny. Watching the messages as they disappeared into the ether I was able to track friendships, relationships and random miscellanea that have taken place over the last 2 years in the sentence fragments displayed.

It was weird, and it feels even weirder to say it but it feels like a weight has lifted off my shoulders. Nothing in there brought up bad memories but it was like I was holding onto the last two years in that folder, and while I'll never forget them (at least not till I'm 94) I feel like I can look forward a little clearer now.

Which is total tish because I've felt that way for a fair while, but when you can do something semi-physical or metaphorical to mark it... it's the exclamation mark to your realisation.

And now, here are all the messages I still have in my Drafts folder. Not all were written by me, no specific dates will be provided and some will be edited for brevity because just DAMN!

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Old Boy
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Mummys alright, daddys alright,
they just seem a little weird
(Note: I tend to jot lyrics for songs down in sms'. It's faster than finding the note application ok?)
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Late notice I know, but I've been sleepy... hooray for shit excuses!
(Note: Remember, this is the drafts folder. You can add lazy to the list then.)
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Swarm of locusts has descended on Hawthorn.
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24 mins till train. Should I come in?
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(32 blank messages to a random assortment of contacts. Good work Nokia)
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My dentists office feels like a Relaxation Spa. That or a really high class cult.
Either way I look and feel completely out of place.
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Is you alive? I have a vodka lemon k
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Have a brick
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I swear to god, if you're late for the same reason as the last two times I'm getting you spayed
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Jen AND NICK
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Hey, anyone want to go to the zoo when the baby elephant goes on show? I'm thinking we do it before his ears get big enough for him to fly away.
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Acceptable in the 80's
Galvanise the empire
Girl talk
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John Keats poetry
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Maybe drop by mine first.
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Random Ed Facts #325 & #7:
Everyday, I get a little more disappointed that my office doesn't spontaneously burst into song and dance.
And until the age of 16 I was afraid of Dragon Flys. I thought they could sting me. Imagine a Dragon Fly sticking out of your neck and tell me that that's not scary!
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(A message that is ended with *hug*. My testosterone stopped me from sending it)
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White jeans, pastel shirt, white tie with black silk printing... brown vest? Black would probably work...
(... your guess is as good as mine)
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365 burnley st
(when I thought I could afford a house in Richmond. Ha!)
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Aqua - Candyman
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I love you
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I like penis
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And thus comes the end of my "short" post. One day I'll learn. The following day I'll forget.

Till next time children!

- Sevy